why do i cry?

it just doesnt make sense.
nothing makes sense anymore.
why?

you know.
somehow i think sunlao has totally given up all hope of me actually learning anything in her lesson.
when i write letters, she looks at me and says nothing. but when she sees someone else writing, she'll tell that person to stop writing.
seriously.

but who cares.
actually i do.
its quite scary.
the fact that i'm so um rebellious (is it?) and inattentive that no matter what she does, it cant make me change whatsoever?

honestly
i think that the teachers are giving up on me one by one.
i think i should change
but a leopard cant change its spots.
although i will try.
i mean, sec2 is such a crucial year.
and then im here slacking off like what the shit.

from today onwards.
im gonna totally keep my word on this.
no comp till work's done.
but the thing is, i see my table and i have no mood for work.
it's all CLUTTER. it's just one big big big mess of things. seriously, i need to shift the clutter to the other table.
sigh.
i need need need to hand in everything on time from now on. totally man.

sigh.
will i always be this helpless rebel. -.-
sunlao probably thinks i have attitude problem
i mean okay i do have a bit of attitude problem :D
but doesnt everyone?
maybe not dot. or jean's gang clique in particular. yeah
well i know for sure that gloria thinks i have an attitude problem.
thanks a lot lah.

crappppp i need to change my ways ):
haha change my name. like ethel.
and become a si1 wen2 de nu3 hai2 overnight.
you all will probably start asking me if anything's wrong, am i sad, is there a problem etc.
I KNOW COS IT HAPPENED BEFORE!!!! T_T

ok wdv. we'll see how it goes yea =/

OH AND ONE MORE THING THAT MADE ME HAPPY :D

HAHA IT WAS SUPER EGO BUT I ASKED HUIBIN WHY SHE HUGGED SANDY NV HUG ME
THEN SHE HUGGED ME

((((((((:

WHEEEEEEEEE

hahahhaa yes i know its super spastic but huibin rocks :D

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
IM SO FREAKING PISSED THAT I JUST CANT TALK ABOUT IT.

GRRRRRRRRRR
SUNLAO HAS NO SENSE OF HUMOUR WHATSOEVER.
I MEAN ITS AN APRIL FOOLS JOKE FOR GOODNESS SAKE WTF.
AND YOU STILL SCOLD US?
GET A LIFE.

AH TODAY WAS A FREAKING STUPID DAY.
oh ethel's post has a lot of effs. think it'll be banned on school com. ._.
ANYWAYS.
TODAY SUCKED PLEASE.
THE FUGGING CIP PISSED THE HELL OUT OF ME
AND I DONT KNOW WTF MADE ME SO VULGAR ALL OF A SUDDEN IM JUST SUPER PISSED ABOUT CIP.
GRAHHHHHHHHHHH

OKAY.
i shouldnt use caps. i look like im shouting >|
anyway.
yeah. cip we gotta split into groups of 3.
I TELL YOU MAN, I FREAKING HATE GROUPS OF 3. ITS SO SO SO UNFAIR AND ITS JUST SO FRIGGING SICKENING IRRITATING WHATEVER
and so cos of this freaking shit groups of 3, i am now with xinyu and chinny.
i mean okay fine its not a big deal
but its people i've never worked with. people i hardly know. i mean even if i got grouped with jean it's ok. or lydia. but. ohgawd i dont wanna talk about it.
cos well ethel (was it ethel?) wanted to do with gail and emma. which left me out. and cos xinyu and chinny was just 2 people. so she just put me with them. ohgod lah. no offence to chinny and xinyu. im just not very um. shou2 with you all.
i bet if i told someone about this, she'd totally say that it's a good experience to bond with other people i dont normally group with. oh what garbage. i'm happy being just normal friends with them.
OH FREAK LAH IM NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.
just THINKING about it brings tears to my eyes. irk.

today in pop. somehow i just wanted to punch the stack of books and wreck pop. but i kept telling myself to relax relax relax.
im sorry ethel for um. shi4 fan4-ing to stab you and punch you.
yes i am not blind, i know vic told you.
even if you all think i didnt see? yes i did. -.-

i feel like saying something to ethel.
but i think its quite hurting.
im really really sorry ):
maybe i'll tell you one day but.
yeah.
<3

a thought of killing myself popped into my mind today.
but i pushed it out of my mind.
trivial matters arent worth my life for.
grah.

laoheng is so -.-
sickening please.
*remembers the potatoes*
ohman i love home econs. and miss lim. (she's miss lim right? T_T)
but then ms wong was so um. qianbian. sorry.
seriously lah. its just LIGHTS and FANS. i'm sure you're very much into conservation.
oh and we promise not to do it again.
*raises eyebrows*

guides pt rocked (:
it was so. um. successful? yeah.
it gave me a sense of success (do i sound like rouying T_T)
and the leg 90degrees thing. i was like holding evelyn's hand. lol
it was super pain lah. for the stomach muscles. T_T
mm after guides i counted snails with dear jean :D
jean rocks mannn (:
anyway, jean and i counted 118 snails in the grass patch next to the quadrangle after the rain. and if that doesnt freak you out enough, there could be more. (:
oh and we saw tons and tons of ants at the drain there. and this spider which probably was gonna eat up the ants. *raises eyebrows*
then jean went off and.. i went to wait for my mum.
hsinying also waited for her uncle. and then her uncle went to the busstop but hsinying told him to go boarding school. so he had to turn and drive back.
sure took him a long time to turn around man. my prediction came true. my mum came earlier than her uncle.
but still, she came at 715. guides ended at 620. T_T stoned with hsinying for a long long long time man. grawr

IRK
YOU KNOW I SOMEHOW REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY THINK THAT THAT CHUNK OF WORDS IS REFERRING TO ME.
I MEAN IM SORRY IF IM BEING SUPER STRAIGHTFORWARD BUT ITS SO OBVIOUS PLEASE.

gah.
i so hate my life.
i hate everything
i hate school.
i hate homework.
i hate sias.
i hate cip.
i hate laoheng.
i hate sunlao.

and any other human being is liked/loved/neutral-ed by me.
yes, even them
dont be surprised lah.
they're neutral-ed. although tipping more to the bad side.

FUG I HATE MY LIFE.

SCOUT!
i love scout :D
scout is so cute
hahaha



OHMAN SCOUT ROCKS :D

hohoho
its ATTICUS AGAIN!
although he looks quite weird in this pic. ._.
but still ok lah. hahaha

ATTICUS!
atticus rocks :D

im trying to find a pic of atticus.

haha i think you all will be shocked.
and think he's ugly or something.
):



welllll?
hahahaha he looks bad in this pic lah.
but i tell you in the movie he is so cool :D
LOL!

T_T
i just remembered something which made me super sad ))):
today i was walking and then rachel was walking in the other direction. as in towards me. uhhuh and then i smiled at her.

then she daoed me T___T
and i was sad!!! )):

actually i think its quite normal for senior to dao a junior?
but i dont know.
it just made me sad ):


ah sixuan broke my heart today ):
i was sitting there and she was like "what are you doing here"
and it sounded quite pissed off =/
booo.

haiyo you're so sickening lah.
you dont like me.
well i dont like you either -.-
i mean your eyes big so what.
and its not as if i'm so nice to stare at lah.
and you just keep staring staring staring.
IRK?
one day when i walk past your class i might contemplate kicking you.
you irritating little twit.

haiyo silly me.
i have this bad cough.
(ok not so bad)
but i still consumed the following things which could have possibly been the cause of my cough worsening. or rather, i'm sure they are what made my cough worsen.
[note i used CONSUME. not just eat or drink whatever. lol

CONSUMPTIONS.
*yumi's butter and cheese fishthings :D
*half a pack (gail ate the other half) of barbecue twisties =/
*3x ebi ._. ebi is deepfried.
*chilled icepeachtea.
*popcorn chicken [...] deepfried
*milo freeze
*longjohn's french fries ._. deepfried

aw man.
like, everything i ate today is unhealthy. except the cola sweet i ate just now.
wonder what's for dinner.
im not really hungry.

my dad went to newzealand! i want a fat stuffed toy kiwi.
the other one, piki, is um. non-huggable. and hard. ):
i want a fat squishy one :D
I LOVE NEWZEALAND i want to go to newzealand.
i tell you ah.
last year we planned everything all plan le.
wanted to go to newzealand for holiday.
and then!
no ticket T_T cos we book late.
in the end.
we go
to

AMERICA.

ha but america is also nice :D

one day i shall go to newzealand.
maybe if can i shall ask my parents to bring me to newzealand this year.
if my bro goes to the army in december (highly unlikely) then maybe we cant go.
heehee.

i love going overseas (:

WHEE!
i like my hair now
although i didnt do anything
it just looks so pretty! :D

my hair at night is always pretty pretty :D
but in the morning it's messy. then i tie it up and it becomes neat.
then by the time i reach home it'll be messy. bleh.
then i wash my hair :D
and when it dries,
it becomes pretty again!

pretty hair :D

hoho i love my hair (:
nice and brown and curled at the bottom :D
and nicey and shiny hahaha cooool :D
i like!

i wanna wash my hair in the morning so when i go to school my hair will be pretty!
but then it'll be wet.
when it's wet its not pretty. not VERY pretty.
but once it dries its very pretty (:
and i dont wanna tie it up cos its pretty pretty :D

heehee what a spastic post (x
bye!

sheesh.
you know, i thought i could trust you.
but now i don't think i can.
whatever i told you
you told her.
everything
about us, and just, everything.
why can't you just keep it to yourself?!
sigh


ohmygosh.
please.
dont raise up that matter again
i wished i could forget that.
i've tried so hard
and my wish was coming true.
and then you just had to remind me about it, all over again
will you just STOP IT.
it doesnt mean anything to you,
but do you know how much it means to me
the hurt
everything
it's all been forgotten.
but now you're bringing it all back to me
you're probably just trying to know more
but you're not getting anywhere
all you're doing is hurting me all over again
you're digging the hole deeper than it already is.
im sorry i had to say this,

but will you just SHUT UP?

ohno.
i saw the announcement on ivle abt the sec4s.

and my first reaction was:

gasp!

haha i dont know why lah. ._.


and guess what!
sgk is a LES! *gasp*
look at her nick and its RIGHT THERE *gasp*
ha few people know who sgk is. :D
probably only jean&co, and me :D
but if you really really really wanna know then i guess you could just ask me. hoho

charmaine's pissed.
wonder why. lol.
vic's super pissed.
really wonder why. ._.

*prints geog notes*
:D

boo sakubun is so un-understandable.
i dont understand anything in the body. can read, dont understand. T_T

i bought an orange marker today!
i really should stop buying markers ._. and i owe vic 70cents. haha.


loud thunder and bright lightning.
ominous clouds and gusting wind.
signs of foreboding, informing
us of what's to come ahead.


omg what a garbage poem
its not even a poem.
lol i created it in like 5 mins?

i wanna read my book. oh i bought 2 books :D i like! (:
kays bye.

oh and ethel, relinked. (:

ohmy. art is tomorrow first period O.O
means i might have to bring penguin home after third lang?
maybe i'll bring home on friday when i have transport. hee.

weh.
today olivia and meiting bully me ):
they ruffled my hair. meiting ruffled. then i was like staring at her. and then olivia walked past and ruffled it. T_T my hairrrr.

anyway.
i realised people always bully me -.-
but then, I LIKE TO BULLY PEOPLE! actually only jean. and maybe emma :P
hohoho ooops.
i wonder when's art.
i wanna hurry finish that penguin lah. if not the clay is stoning at home. im scared it'll dry up and really become stone. ._. rawr

did ljwd today -.- AGAIN. irk please.
ha i punched the paper. ya and in the end i did the thingy. (like the guai angel i am :D)
then history. my hand died writing ._. i was filling in the worksheet and also writing charmaine's letter.
then both the worksheet and letter had atrocious handwriting. GAH T_T

oh yay i replied evelyn's letter within a day :P she's gonna love me for that XD! but then again, she already loves me :D
so she's gonna love me more for that. XD!
ha i havent said this in a long time but im gonna say it again.
NINETY% OF THE WORLD LOVES ME!
yay ME! :D


OHMAN. i tell you arh. this morning sucked okay!
i woke up and i was like totally zombiefied please.
yeah so i was walking with my eyes half open. and i went to class. then i put my stuff down and i was all ready to go sit at sitong's place. then sitong came and sat at her place T_T so i went to sit at my seat and sleep. then cos jean wanted to ask me something, so i headed towards jean's seat. i stood up and POW i couldnt open my eyes. i dont know why lah. i was like ohman cant open erps. then jean was like "iris what happened to you! walk straight walk straight!" so i found myself at yuanyi's seat and i grabbed the chair and sat. i rubbed my eyes like crazy. and i slept. on jean. hoho
after that i was finally wide awake. wheepee.

watched a bit of mockingbird today. i tell you man, they cut out a lot a lot of parts! its so sad! ._. and i thought dill's aunt was aunt rachel. how come in the movie its aunt stephanie O.O?
ya and at the bob ewell staring into the car part, i was hugging my jacket (its a sorta scary part). so i was hugging my jacket but not cos i was scared, i mean. then laoheng sat at the chair and she was staring at me with super huge O.O eyes and i raised an eyebrow at her. (:D typical me.) anyway then she asked me "you're scared?" i was like what the?! DUH, NO! its called a love for my jacket :D
i love my jacket.
i tell you, i almost cried when DAVID put it on the grass. like, EW PLEASE. its the GRASS! how about i put you on the grass lying down. and i was freaking out. and that was the time when i had to carry chentian piggybacked way. man, i could've died. no offence, chentian (:

CRAP OH CHEESE OH CRAP GEEZ SHEESH MY GOODNESS OMGEEEEZ!!!!!!
1. i didn't bring home my maths textbook. gloria is gonna kill me when she finds out i didnt do the homework!!!! OH MAN!!!!!! T___T TEXTBOOK COME BACKKKKKKKKK irkkkk.
2. i STILL havent handed in biopoem CRAP!!!
3. i didn't bring home my history file!

WHATS WRONG WITH ME T_T

blahblahblah bye. grrrr math textbook and hist file come backkk T_T

rawr lah
today sucked please.
i was so pissed off. over so many things. HAIYA.
maybe as ethel says, by blogging i can let it all out and xiao my qi. RAH.
however, i'm gonna highly restrain myself from saying any vulgarities. (:

mm ok the day started off good. no assembly. yupyup. :D
the pledge person said the pledge wrongly. geez. maybe she was too nervous. =/
ya and then stoned in class for half an hour? around there. and i wrote yuann's letter.

then she came in. some aqua coloured outfit today.. ew. i drew it! ya. then she started to nag about av stuff. scolding ziyan >| that was when i started to get pissed. i mean she's so garbage please. talking nonsense all the time. (OMGEEZ I FORGOT TO HAND IN BIOPOEM IM DEAD! but bianca didnt say must hand in. im dead anyhow) then i was asking jenzi if she did the chi sia. well jenzi did do the chi sia. i didnt. sad. then she started ranting on like "iris why arent you paying attention what are you doing why are you doing something irrelevant blahblahblah" and i was staring at my pencil and the paper on which i drew her outfit. so i was sitting there looking around. then lydia wanted to pass a note to qian but decided not to. so she was nagging and i was staring at the table. then she was like "why arent you listening to me do you think langarts is useless" and once again, i thought to myself: "no apparently i do not think langarts is useless. however i think you are useless" and ya so i was so ready to scream at her to shut up and get out of the class and ethel was like eff her. aww who pities her. i know i dont. irk.

and then it was science. i didnt really pay 100% attention (like i *cough* always do) but i copied notes. yup and then we got back some worksheets. blah.

then recess. went to comp lab to stone. some sec4 ate my comp so i had to move. -.- then ethel changed url blahblah spastic recess.

and then drama. -.- she purposely wanted to separate us lah please. then did scenarios. i did with soohan (: hoho i broke up with soohan awwwws. and rouying's one didnt make sense... sorryyy ):

mass dance. nothing to say.

math. oh math. -.- gloria separated xinyi and i. and i sat there doing corrections and that question she gave us last time. she did battleship. ya then she asked us to do some questions. but i didnt bring my textbook. neither did i bring graph paper. so she was like "ok. those who have NOTHING TO DO (she emphasised on that), take out a foolscap and draw a graph." i stoned. and the bell rang. i was like "oh thank god"

ate an icecream during lunch despite having sorethroat. nothing happened. ah. vic and i got chased out by the 100% sickening and irritating popular OLD WOMAN. i shant be nice and say aunty. cos she's an old woman, undeniably. she shooed us out, saying go out no icecream. then she did what sunlao trademark-ly does -- rub our back. EW LAH. she was rubbing and patting. ew so gross. i was rubbing away her skin cells onto vic after that. then vic said she rubbed vic's back too. so we rubbed backs to disinfect our backs. -.-

oh then it was chinese. sunlao was surprisingly late. yes, surprisingly. if she is late, then no one would be surprised. but if sunlao is late, everyone would be surprised. but i think sunlao was talking to some tenners. yup. then sunlao said that she's gonna give up her 60min (yes she said 60min. probably to emphasise on her wonderful "wei da-ness" of giving up so much time.) to discuss our funfair stalls. ya so we were like organising ourselves. gave out roles. and ethel is the prj leader (naturally). some people wanted dot but dot is a better duty roster-setter so she became the head of preparation. the head of preparation assigns shifts. lol. sorta like a duty roster la. then we chose our committees. and i was the last one who hasnt picked a committee. typical, no? -.- ya and so there was like no other committee i could possibly join except her committee. but even if i had to jump off the third floor and land in the grass patch (according to vic, we wont die -.-), i'd never work with her. turns out that no one else was willing to work with her either! oh and vic and i think that she had been wanting a major role (like a head of blahblah) in this funfair. can tell from her expression la. obvious please. and so i was sorta forced to join her because.. nothing else to join. T_T oh btw gail, if you've read till here, you're head of marketing/publicity. okey. back to the point. anyway, i was just sitting there trying to find a solution to not work with her. and vic (the wonderful vic!) proposed a suggestion that she be made head of design committee and i be under vic. but the thing is. where would she go? no one wants her. so how? in the end, its like this. vic, louisa, her and i are in design. BUT! vic and i are one shift and they 2 are another. yesyes. that works for me. louisa doesnt have anything to do about procurement during funfair so she can help her.

and then jap.
sat with kunhang. and with that giant shrek guy in front of me. -.- like totally blocking my view please? and they belong at the other side. O.o and so i took a book from below the projector and put it to block the heat which was emitting from the projector. then i realised something. that book i took belonged to someone named.... DONUT!!! her parents must have loved doughnuts. donut is such a cute name. so i was telling kunhang about it. and i went to look at the book again. and then sensei was like "iris-san what's wrong?" and i said "this person's name is DONUT" and everyone laughed. ha i rock. and then i looked and it again. and sensei said "iris-san why are you so distracted by that book? it's disrupting the class" i mean PLEASE lah, i look at the book, it's MY BUSINESS. there's no one behind me. or directly beside me except kunhang on my left. and kunhang said something like "its not as if looking at the book distracts the class. its only distracting him. -.-" ya and i never looked at donut again. donut im sorry if you see this. you caused me trouble, girl. anyway then it was break and yingxiang, sixuan and i went downstairs. yingxiang threw her wallet at an innocent grasshopper and it hopped out the window. sad. and yingxiang the blur person bought hot coffee instead of cold coffee ._. wow. and i got an sms from charmaine. as i walked up the stairs. so for the rest of jap i was smsing charmaine. *raises eyebrows*

ah and charmaine told me smth that im not gonna say here.
but to that person, whatever please. if you think you're so good, think again. tsk.

and my maid took away my water. where's my water !!!! T_T
my mum called to say my dad's eating dinner.
my bro called to say he's not eating dinner.
so i had to shout to my maid that dad's eating, bro's not. weird man.

so basically these people pissed me off today:
her
mdm oehlers<-is it spelt like that? (for about 10 mins only though)
gloria
pop old woman
HER
sensei
that person charmaine smsed me abt

ha there are so many unknowns. ohwell. the world has many secrets.
although i dont think the above unknowns are so hard to identify. simplesimplesimple. like PIE. although pie isnt simple. hmm.

okey think this post is quite long.
congrats to you if you've read till here. (:

oh and last thing.
i think ethel's right!
im less pissed now.
although not entirely un-pissed. hmm. GAH tomorrow lang arts x2. but last period free period.

byebye~

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
learn how to mend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears
All away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come
Home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high

As souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

((:

You Are 20% Happy

You know that there's more to life than how you've been living it. Life can be rough at times, but most of your unhappiness is self-inflicted.

Your Life Path Number is 3

Your purpose in life is to express your unique self. You are a creative and artistic person with an interesting view on life. Witty and outgoing, you enjoy sharing your crazy ideas with anyone who will listen. A total social butterfly, you're the life of any party. In love, you inspire and enchant your partner. You are often an object of fantasy and desire. While you are very talented, you sometimes lack the ambition to put your talents in play. And while your wit carries you a long way, you occasionally use it to mask your true feelings. Your natural abilities can bring you all the success in the world ... if you let them

Your Birth Month is August

Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful. You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits! Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotion Your gemstone: Peridot Your flower: Poppy Your colors: Orange, red, and light green

ohno opium is produced from poppies. lol. shucks.

You Are 24% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

THIS IS RIDICULOUS PLEASE. im super evil lah. ._.

You Are 28% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

well the pic freaks me out. but im 100% abnormal and i know it (:
hohoho.

You Are 7 Up

Understated and subtle, people warm up to you slowly. But once they're hooked, they can't imagine going back to anyone else! Your best soda match: Diet Coke Stay away from: Mountain Dew

weh i like mountain dew.

You Are a Minimal Christmas Tree

You're not a total Scrooge, but you feel no need to go overboard at Christmas. Less is more, and your Christmas reflects refined quality.

aww but i love christmas )):

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

You Were an Otter

You are a faithful friend who guides others toward success. You are also light hearted, and love to play around.

SHEESH?!

okey shall stop here. (:

ah. im going nuts again.
i typed in 7... for my blogger username. and the wrong pass for the password.
and then i typed the title of this post as iris.
wonder why.

i should get some sleep.
gonna sleep soon
nighteys (:

weh
im falling sick
i have a runny nose
and a cough
and sore throat
and i think my voice is a bit odd.

n0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o!!!!

this sucks man.
i've always expected this.
people all get sick and i don't.
when they all finally get well, i end up getting sick instead.
THIS IS CRAP!
ahhhhh think i'll go sleep soon. T_T
but then xinyi/chentian/soohan didnt confirm tomorrow's lagh+math meeting T_T
so now i also don't know how T_T

homeworkhomework!
-biopoem on tkam by monday.
-chi sia by next week (probably monday)
-history file by tuesday.
-math file by anytime.

um. tolerable la. better than previous weekends. this weekend is good (:
i think i'm gonna cut down my comp usage time :)
and never hand in another late work (impossible)

oh and rayna aggravated the cough i have.
you know what she did? SHE TOLD ME TO GO AWAY!
RAYNA! T_T
raynaaaa )):
rayna is so mean ):

haiya indoor cooking was so chaotic.
cooking the capsicum, the fire for no reason whatsoever just shot right up. oli screamed (no. 1). then she suddenly remembered our poor bread pudding which was in the oven. she opened the oven to take it out. the poor bread pudding rose until it hit the ceiling of the oven. oli screamed (no. 2).
ok think she screamed twice.
ya then she freaked out when the supposedly omelette couldnt flip. so it became.. scrambled eggs!
ya and then missteng realised that we didnt off our fire. (zhao si T_T)
ya so i dont know what happened.
sigh
we were very dao mei today la.

oh and i somehow think she's trying to be um. extra? yea. like. hello, i'm talking to her.
haiya shant say anymore.

im sickkkkk
i want to be wellllll
n0o0o0o0o0o0o0o!!!!!!!!!!!!

JIAYOU CHARMAINEYPOOPEY FOR YOUR COMPETITIONS ON SATURDAY AND SUNDAY! YOU CAN DO IT! JIAYOU JIAYOU! (:

ohno i just realised how biased that made me seem.. cos when michelle has comps i dont say jiayou like that. but i dont know she has comp until the comp day itself. whereas charmaineypoopey told me eons ago. poo.
sorry michelle (:

math was partially in the com lab. i took the opportunity to upload flash! whoo i love myself (: yup gail helped me with the button (: thanks gail! LOVE :D
and vic, gail, ethel and i were blowing this plastic bag around the tables and laughing at my sad inability to blow the featherlight plastic bag T_T tragic tragic. then i blew the plastic bag onto the floor. HEH. pfftt (:
then went back to class.. got back our short quiz + pe theory test. got full marks for quiz. what a miracle please. it's probably a once in a year thing. yeah. and theory test.. got A. yeah.

sigh, bored.

yup okey im gonna stop here.
byebye!

AHHHH THIS POST IS GONNA BE IN CAPS

OMGEEZ IM GOING BONKERS PLEASE!!!!

JUST NOW I WENT TO GMAIL TO TYPE IN MY USERNAME.
I TYPED IN 7114050352 LAH!
AND THEN I REALISED.
SO I CHANGED TO MY E-MAIL ADD
THEN I REALISED THAT I FORGOT MY E-MAIL ADD
SO LOUISA HAD TO TELL ME WHAT IT IS T_T

THEN AFTER THAT I WENT TO HOTMAIL TO CHECK MY E-MAIL
TYPE IN THE E-MAIL ADD, I TYPED IN 7114050352 AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH. THEN I FINALLY TYPED THE CORRECT ONE.

THEN I WANTED TO COME TO BLOGGER TO BLOG ABOUT THAT
AND I FORGOT MY PASSWORD
THEN I WAS LIKE THINKING THINKING UNTIL SUDDENLY IT STRUCK ME.

AND THEN 3 MINS AGO I THOUGHT MY IVLE USERNAME WAS 7115040352. WTH!? THE 5 AND 4 ARE SWITCHED!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM GOING MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wheeee :)
finished flash assignment 2. left 4. shall do tomorrow.
mannn i've been super guai since the term started please. :D
like since when do i hand in IT on time ._. and copied tons of notes. eeks.

sigh there's pt tomorrow for guides.
and i so don't look forward to christmas tree please? -.-!
grawr tomorrow is indoor cooking. lol. and there's home econs tomorrow. so much cooking la. sucks.

heheh 90% of the world loves me :D
ethel said that like how many times today la
hahaha im LOVED :D

oh and today.
the stupid stupid bird.
hopped into our class.
-.-
sorry la but i was super freaked ._.
haha louisa and i were screaming like nuts. mostly me =X
ya and the bird pecked rouying's food ._. rawr.
AH.
and the reason why we couldnt chase the bird away
was because our class was LOCKED.
and why was our class LOCKED?
because SOMEONE ate in class.
and lied about a part of it.
wow, woman. wow.

rah cant stand that mushroom please.
i mean.
WHAT A SPY -.-
you don't HAVE to tell her.
I wouldn't
geez.
rah wu hua ke shuo.

things due tmr:
biopoem
flash assignment(s)

dno what else.
oh. pe was crap today.
but i love my pe partner.
((((:

no mood to blog le.
byebye~

ESPECIALLY FOR GAIL AND ETHEL!
okey this is totally mean
but it made me laugh for 2 mins ._.



are you laughing too ?!

omg this is ethel's one
but im putting it here cos i think its EXTREMELY HILARIOUS XD XD XD XD!!!




LOL ETHEL CANT SWIM!
RUB ETHEL!
OMGEEZ I CANT STOP LAUGHING XD!

oh its 11. haha i thought it was 12 already.
i cant find another file to put my sec1 math stuff! THERES TOO MUCH MATH STUFF!!!!! T_T!!

ya so i was bored (as usual) and i found this funny thing (x gail go try. yours is funny XD!




and please lor. whats with me being a hardboiled egg T_T and MAN of the year.
this is so crap (x
funny funny!
AND AHHHHH I DIDNT MAKE THE CONDOM WTH!?!??!!

oh its 11. haha i thought it was 12 already.
i cant find another file to put my sec1 math stuff! THERES TOO MUCH MATH STUFF!!!!! T_T!!

ya so i was bored (as usual) and i found this funny thing (x gail go try. yours is funny XD!




and please lor. whats with me being a hardboiled egg T_T and MAN of the year.
this is so crap (x
funny funny!

ouch.
my file is fatal.
it scratched my leg.
now my leg is bleeding T_T
ow.

OUCH T_T

lalala okay some more quizzes.
prediction: results are gonna be rubbish again. -.-

here goes!





Which Barbie are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

YUCK YUCK YUCK OMGEEZ YUCK. MY PREDICTION IS ONE STEP CLOSER TO BECOMING REAL!





Which drug are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

haha they really shouldnt be encouraging this, y'know. -.-





What sort of girl are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

haha i've always known i was a good girl ((:





Are you a potential serial killer? Find out @ star-girl.org!

ahahahaha oooops (x *whispers to gail: skin & rub salt!*





How are you going to die? Find out @ star-girl.org!

i thought they meant like by getting stabbed or in a car accident -.- but ohwell this is garbage ._.





What's your mental age? Find out @ star-girl.org!

imma baby! XD





Which 'South Park' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

"they've killed kenny!" or was it something like that. dno. =/





Which F.R.I.E.N.D are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

i THINK im hilarious?! no i dont ._.

ah crap quizzes mannnn.
ohwell. but the sweet girl and the mental age thing is funny (x
hoho hello im a sweet 4yrold girl :D

okey. im having a spas convo with gail. O.O
lalala byebye

quizzes again!
i think these quizzes are rather cute (x





What dessert are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

ohman making me hungry ._.





Find out what flavour ice cream you are @ star-girl.org!

and hungrier..





How much of an Internet Geek are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

lol this is spas! XD





Find out which city you are @ star-girl.org!

london. i've never been there. hee.





Which Simpson are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

lol i thought i'd be homer or something. cos i said i was lazy O.o





Which 'Shrek 2' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

omgeez what an insult. stupid quiz!!





Which 'Legally Blonde' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

i dont know what show this is. but that woman sure looks bad. ):





Which 'Pirates of the Caribbean' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

WHY AM I A MONKEY?!?!?!?!?!





Which 'Winnie The Pooh' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

omgeez! CHERYL AND EVELYN ALWAYS CALL ME PIGLET O: (gapes in shock)





Which 'Lord of the Rings' character are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

*is freaked out* i dont like aragorn T_T these quizzes are FAKE! rawr. except maybe the piglet one. XD





Which Disney heroine are you? Find out @ star-girl.org!

GEEEEZ SEASHELL BRA -.- hahahahahahahahahaha

eh ok i put the rest in another post. if not this post will be too long.
mannnnn these quiz results are GARBAGE!
hey i havent said garbage in a long while.
GARBAGE I SAY, GARBAGE!

rawr today SUCKED.
except for lunch time
when i laughed till i almost cried. (x
running around like nuts with ethel. hehheh. cos we were taking emma's stuff and emma was chasing us to get it back :P

sunlao is nuts can. ok thats random.

ya im so lucky that i went for jap today
its the last time i see joelle! T_T
cos she's quitting )):
boo, joelle.
but im quitting too, probably. in june, maybe. if i do. yeah.

after jap.. went j8.
walking around and then guess who i saw.
4 people. no prizes for guessing correctly. but. ya. suay.
i ran away.
and then kaiyang and shimin did something really wonderful. yeah THANKS A LOT HUH.
they shouted so so loudly "IRIS" and i bet those 4 people heard la. and i was running away T_T wth.
ya and then at ilt, we mistook NOSE RINGS for EARRINGS and omgeez we almost bought O:
but we bought real earrings. i bought a fishy (: kaiyang bought a star, shimin bought a footprint (:
then walked around. blahblah. didnt buy much, although shimin and kaiyang did.
i love life bkshop! its so nice please!
i want that nice bible hohoho. its so cool (x
oh and i wanted to buy another zipper pull thingy from giftaname. cos the colour very nice. and it said i<3jesus :D kakakaka. but i didnt la. no money. actually have. but its for 1 week can. T_T so didnt buy lor. almost bought a bookmark/card from life. but didnt. thought it was quite a waste. (x yea.

oh man i want to watch so you think you can dance!
i watched the first half just now. then my mum says watching that is a waste of time. i mean, even if i dont watch, i also wont do work right =x might as well watch. :P ooooops. ._.
ya i watched like 30secs of campus. then my bro switched the channel to so you think you can dance. isis is quite weird. but her name rocks. it sounds like iris :D

im ego. ohno. :D
but nvm.

im ponning 3rd lang on wed! even if charm cant go home with me, i'm still ponning! my dear rgs people who always surround me all have learning journey fieldtrip. then they all not coming. SO I SHANT GO! RAWR. (:

okey i have to do art and my dna (im redoing it. its not curly enough T_T)
byebye!

I AM EGO! :D
SEE THIS!

how i wish says:
iris is nice ! (:
how i wish says:
IRIS ROCKS ! xD

(that's faith)

[[..iris..]] hey you. says:
gail am i nice?
when you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are... says:
yeah

(that's gail)

*vIcToRiA aishiteru zhen(: says:
you're nice

(that's vic)

how i wish says:
i was wondering where you were

(that's faith again.)

SHE WONDERED WHERE I WAS! HOHOHO


ohman i am ego (x
gail said im nice,
vic said im nice,
faith said im nice.

which means?

I AM NICE!


[edit]
oh and gail likes me (x
i'm under her likes column in her profile :D
i'm LOVED!
because i'm NICE! :P
[/edit]

in future, im going to make sure my job NEVER NEVER NEVER includes maths.
if i ever get a job involving math, i'll go and punch myself in the stomach till i die. self-affliction. ohwell.
maths sucks.
i hate maths.
i see no point in learning algebra.
URGHHH.

i wanna punch HER
and gail supports me.

geez she's crap.
and so is math.

hey this is my 102nd post. (x
COOL MAN! :P
just created this blog um...
last month? or the month before. not sure. can't remember le.
but this is cool (:

OH MAN HOLIDAYS END.
good points:
-tmr can see gail again :D
-can see the dwarves!

bad points:
-gotta see spas teachers. like heng. T_T
-school is not a good thing to start with ANYWAY.
-there's third lang tmr. oh and i might be quitting .. with joelle. ._.
-i can't be idle T_T
-i can't go online. um okay nvm -.- (actually can..)
-i can't go out! (ok actually can)
-i can't go shopping! (actually also can..)
- aiya school is crap. 'nuff said.


i want holidays.
i do NOT look forward to school.
@%#$! school is crap T_T
i wanna go on a date with gail again O:
that time was so funny.
ohman i remember what happened after i attempted to sit on the kiddy ride.
looked so stupid.
laughed like nuts. ._.
ohwellll.

school, shoo.

hee was bored.
cos ran is playing warcraft then no one to talk to.
well i'm talking to joelle.
talking about quitting jap :O

ya so i did quizzes.
from quizilla.
im telling you.
the results are way weird. X_x




PLEASE THAT IS SO NOT ME T_T
although the part about hanging out with friends MIGHT be me :P



geez what's with air. oxygen? ._.



i don't know about BREATHTAKING PICS. but i sure know about long results.
the quiz was totally in pink. OW MY EYES T_T



this is weird.
wonder who's a saggitarius.

and this is my horoscope on the newspaper O.O
" your ideas for life may be in conflict with others' wishes and hopes. you might be treating certain situations with the necessary seriousness. use humour wisely: like to get out of a sticky situation"
dont really know what it means.
heck (x

okey im bored of quizzes thankyou.
hoho at least it occupied me for a while.
:D

ohmygeez
my inner child is older than i really am O.O

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own.
Take this quiz!

now that's really weird.
because i dont always act like that (x
i was expecting a 5yearsold or something O:

hohoho.
i wonder what's gail's inner child
probably 60+
JUST KIDDING (:
maybe 16 too. heh. (x


oohh faith cut her HAIR! O:
i think if she pays like 30bucks for a hair cut, it'd be worth it for her.
her hair is so long.
and she's cutting that same hairstyle as me! WHOOOH. (:
layered short hair with a fringe.
hohoho that rocks (x
we'll really be twins then :D
i want button earrings!
SO CUTE!

yesterday night. haha. did the same name same text thingy (x
did it to... charmaine and ran.
hohoho.
(merry christmas O.O)

ahh i slept after eating breakfast.
my head was like against my mom's back. sorta like i was headbutting her?
and i fell asleep. O.O
now THAT's really weird. XD!

I'M PROUD TO BE A CHRISTIAN! (((:

and i'm not just SAYING that.

I MEAN IT!


I LOVE JESUS AND GOD :D :D :D


do i seem like i'm nuts?
ohwell ((:

sigh.
today church was scary ._.
had this baptism of the holy spirit thing.
yeah. auntie joyce, pat and uncle hali and daph were praying for people individually
then one by one after they were prayed for, they started to fall backwards or cry. yeah.
okey shant elaborate.
but (think that's her name) vanessa's falling backwards freaked me out =/
so scaryyyy T_T

yeah then at tuition.
talked a lot =x
did some gonghan and then gave suggestions about activities for the old folks.
goujun, ann and i gave spastic suggestions like um. ballet? wushu? LION DANCE O.O and flower arrangement. but we didnt write in the gonghan la. zhao si ._.

mm so from now onwards i gotta refrain from:
-lying
-cursing/swearing.

(its on my own will. yep.)
i know its gonna be hard. -.-
JIAYOU!


omgeez.
i so want to kill her la.
i mean. nvm shant elaborate (:
yes gail i know you wanna kill her too (:

okey i have to redo my home ec reflections.
"oh wow i learnt how to cook TOMATOES." -.-

(oh i should cut down on the sarcasm T_T)

GAIL! LETS KILL HER! RAWRRRR
decapitate!
dismember!
amputate!
lynch!
i dont know!
what else did we mention? =/

JUST KILL HER!
RAWR :D

*yes i still wanna kill her. T_T

[edit]
ah yes, how could i have forgotten?
SKIN HER AND RUB SALT ON HER! O:
[/edit]

wheeee
turn it up (x

its CHOW TIME :D

(if u dont get what im saying. nvm.)

crises suck.




YOU DIG?



T_T

ya hello im bored so im gonna blog about some stuff i just sorta realised a few hours ago cos i was bored and i was thinking about it.

anyway, just now i went out with my mom (: bought 2 polo tees. shall wear on sunday <3

ya okey so my research. here we go!

RESEARCH!
this research is um. about how people say hi. XD spastic research nvm.

ya anyway. if i say hi to some people, these people will ALWAYS reply like that :D
okey MOST OF THE TIME. not always. ._.

ran: he doesnt even say hi or anything. well. neither do i. XD
gail: yo/hi :D
ziyan: hi iris :)
ethel: yo ris
misslim: hihi!
yenjin: (just says shes busy and byebye. o.o)

eh i dont know what else le.

T_T

dang. it sucks to stay at home >|

ouch.
i just did a really smart thing
i stretched across the bed to try and grab my phone.
then i fell onto all my stuff
then my knee got caught onto something (i still dont know what)
and then now my knee is like super pain

smart.
-.-

this is creepy.
real creepy.
gail, go see it! :D
its a vid of a gymnast.
who's so flexible that you'd never think it humanly possible.
but she's overcome the odds.
omgeez she is creepy.

click to see video..

who is that girl i see
standing before me.
in that mirror.
is that me?
yea it is.
why
why must all the bad things in the world befall upon me.
is it ill-fate
or what.
i dont know.
face it.
uhhhhh.
darn it.
this sucks.

looking back on that day.
that day when i cried.
cried over everything that was going on.
it took 5 minutes.
for an hour or so of tears.
when i think of that day
tears just wanna fall again.
i shouldnt think about it.
yeah.

now.
i live in fear of you.
all of you.
a typical I character.
i always wonder what's gonna happen to me next
what you all might do.
it seems stupid.
somehow i cant change it
i think i'll always live in fear of you.
and of what you might just do next.

._.

whee
just some stuff i gotta get outta my head.

we've been through so many ups and downs.
the downs built up a lot
and the ups never did get their glory
so i suppose that's what this all led too.

cheryl,
im sorry but i have no idea how or what to say in the reply.
there's so much bursting in me.
i mean, a lot has happened.
its not gonna be just a snap of our fingers to change everything back to what it used to be.
i know we all want this resolved, right?
i mean, its sort of like the first step towards real unity within the class
yeah and since its our last year as a class.. maybe we should really work to patch things up.



dont judge a book by its cover.
looks can be deceiving.
yeah.
he may be so uh. not very goodlooking (lol)
but deep inside, there's a real nice guy there.
hahaha
O.O


why is dna so weird. nvrm

shiet.
im scared of her.
scared.
omgeez.
why.
ahhhh.

*runs away.*

we cant change the past.
or the present.
but we can change the future.
if we adapt.
put up with each other.
yeah.

well.
i wanna watch yoursmine&ours. gail wants to watch gubra.
okey thats random.


wheeee (:

i painted my right hand nails.

so ugly T_T
paint until very messy
i just knew my left hand was lousy T__T
but
its starry
and like gail, i predict the stars will fall off.
like duh. so obvious. its like already falling off
*goes to patch it back*

bye

weh i got another splinter.
probably got it while sawing the wood during guides.
what else could it have been? o.o
ohwell.
my bro removed the splinter for me (:
thanks! :P
though he may not see this. nvm. lol.

the last time i got a splinter... was doing suicide (sp?) window. tie and tie the thing and the rope/spars gave me a splinter. not sure which. that one was super far in. and hard to remove. ._. my dad got it out. (:

mm guides today was slacked.
did axemanship first.
wait before i talk abt axemanship.
i have something to say about roll call T_T!
MALU T___T i was so MALU T_T
like, i didnt know what to do cannnn.
then i kept hitting hong ling. =x =x =x
(but yenny says gek was worse O:)
ya and you know, cos my patrol no sec3.. then the only people were huijun and jiayu. newcomers ._. ya and so they nv greet me but nvm cos i also dont know what to do. then. aiya very malu la. huijun was laughing at me. cos i was laughing at myself =x ohwell.
and then right. when went back to original position, i saw rachel standing at the table there T_T wahlao then make me so malu go and do roll call. wahlao wahlao i was shivering like mad ): nono. TREMBLING T_T
mm then axemanship (where i got the splinter)..
quite fun la haha. got a little wood block as a souvenir. only some people got. those who tried la. evelynlim took so long awman. but she completed anyway. after a lot of help from jiehui.
ohh i like jiehui. jiehui is so nice (:
ya after that had song session.
i was separated from zihui and yenny! poo. ya so song session was sorta lame. as in we werent very enthu. only meiting and calean were enthu i think. and other peeps la. ya.
hoho guides was quite peaceful today.
cos most of the people went for first aid (sec2s), pga (sec4s) and some just.. dont need to come lor. ._. lol.
okay so ya guides ended 10 mins early. (miracle?)
then after that went to coro with zihui and yenny.
but before that i went to hand in overdue work =/
math 4.1 to msteng.. the 2 chi2 jiao1 gong1 ke4 sheets to sunlao.. ya.
i havent done maths 3.3 yet.
GAIL ALSO HASNT DONE!
((:

whoooo i love gail to bits ((:

haha and the little bouncy sesame street thing under the table yenny sat at was chao cute can XD rayna, MEE hsinying, yenny and i were laughing loads over it.
ohh and T_T evil batchmates laughed at the fact that yenny and i did chickenpox for hrd. and they laughed at my surname too -.- ha and they laughed at hsinying's surname too anywayyyyy :P

WHOO!
MEE HSIN YING AND IRIS SIOW!
whoooooo (((:
FUNNY MANNNN (x


lalala i love gail i love gail i love gail.
oo im nuts (:

whoo gail is my beloved beloved stead <333

haha and this is a siao conver i had with her just now =/ well, part of it.

[[..iris..]] it's all good says:
GAIL
starlight, starbright, first star i see tonight, i wish i may, i wish i might, get the wish i wish tonight.. says:
IRIS
[[..iris..]] it's all good says:
GAIL!
starlight, starbright, first star i see tonight, i wish i may, i wish i might, get the wish i wish tonight.. says:
IRIS!


ya ok nvrm thats lame.

went out with gail today :D
our first date XD
cos charmaine couldnt go. ohwell.
watched nanny mcphee. hahahaha (x
oh and the ice cream rocked (:

haha okey.
oh and i was just thinking about next year. when we all split into different classes. i think what i really really want..


is to go to the same class as gail (:

haha okey gonna play a prank :D
and do guides ppt.
tmr have cca. 9-12. im gonna see her >| sucks man. but rocks to see my good friends (: soursop :D and evelyn :D and jean :D

YAY i no longer feel deprived ^^
tomorrow!
plaza!
mcphee!
WHEE!
mcphee and whee rhymes. WHEEEE (x

and on friday
GAIL IS MY STEAD!
^{go away ran! :D}

whats happening man!??!!
holidays liao everyone dont wanna go anywhere or go online?!
church, 16 people turned up only. usually around 30. -.-
now online, there's like only 5 people online, not including me. -.-
and then charmaine
OMGEEZ! gail's online! *DANCE AND DANCE*
anyway.
and then charmaine, who sent me like 30 smses since this morning has stopped replying T_T
no source of entertainment.
bored like crap mannnn.

church today was okey.
nice pics (x

ummmm.. i want to go shopping.
i wanna go out tomorrow T_T wahlaowahlao T_T

sigh.
haha just now my personal msg was:
2.54pm. no one is online T_T boo i want gail mannnnn
then it became
3.05pm. 1 person is online. T_T boo i want gail mannnnn
now it is
3.13pm. GAIL'S ONLINE! (:

hahahaha so funny (x
okey spastic.

haiya nothing to say liao.
i wanna go out with charmaine tomorrow. hope can =/
okey byebye


/edit.
my personal msg is now 3.20pm. people are starting to come online. haha
((x

somehow i just feel that i'm deprived.
hahaha.
deprived of a chance to go out with my friends?
cos when i'm free they're not. when they are, i'm not -.-
i wanna go out with gail! and ethel! and yannie! and vic! but everyday they're like not free or something. sigh. ethel got choir thingy first 3 days. gail has trng on 3 days. vic and yannie, dont know. :P

albatrosses are so cute (:

i miss camp. sigh.

haha im bored la
so just got this quiz to do =/

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page18 and find line four.
"But He said to them, "Do not detain me," (rest is continued on next line)
hey the bible is also a book okey.

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
uh. what does that do.

3. What is that last thing you watched on TV?
some food competition thing ..

4. Without looking, guess what time it is.
um 930pm?

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
958pm ._.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
nothing..

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
went out for tuition. this afternoon. left at 330pm

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
iTunes..

9. What are you wearing?
a t-shirt from california saying "I'M THE BOSS" and light blue flower shorts (x

10. Did you dream last night?
nope.

11. When did you last laugh?
seriously, i dont know.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
lots and lots of posters, glow in the dark sheep, my aircon?, my whiteboard, mirror, etc.

13. Seen anything wierd lately?
um. pig's innards blended together with chilli and water >< (on tv la)

14. What do you think of this quiz?
kills boredom. i think?

15. What is the last film you saw?
hoho. remember the titans. (x

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
ahhhh all the things on my wishlist (: and more.

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
well, what don't you know?

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
uh. the hatred and the segregation =x

19. Do you like to dance?
what kind of dance? i guess so. :D

20. George W Bush.. American?
is this some gp question -.-

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what will you call her?
um. i dont know. some nice name. i thought of K.C before. so cool. just letters. (x

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what will you call him?
uh no idea leh. seriously. i dont know.

23. Have you ever considered living abroad?
yesyes i want to live in america. amidst the war and discrimination (okay not that.)

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
come on in :D

25. 4 people who must do this in their journal:
gailey! :D
ethel! :D
michelle (:
charmaine (:
yuann (:
(okay that's 5. but nvm la hehehe)

ya i should stop ranting. hahaha okeys. that was random.

i cant cheer people up.
serious.
im sorry la ):

heyy im back from camp (:
and i miss it already.

totally expected it to be boring and spas.. but it was not bad. sleeping in the quad was nice :D i cant really see the stars without my specs. haha but nvm i saw quite a lot.

eh you know. i dont feel like blogging (x

anyway i just wanna say this one thing.
camp really like, brought us together.
all the whacko we played, the *cough*loser thingy, the drama performance, leadership games.
well, everything.
although amazing race was not good.. not only because it was super tiring (not to mention hot) -.- but also because the class was extremely segregated. yeah.
one incident was when jasmine had stomachache then she went to the toilet. half the class waited while the other half went on. the half that went on kept shouting at the half who waited to hurry up. and well, arguments resulted.
and then the clue station. where there were disagreements and a lot of disputes. whether or not to buy the 2nd clue. ethel asked the class to vote. majority wanted to buy. and well, bianca was angry and ethel was also kinda angry. sigh.
yeah so i guess it was just amazing race that really tore us apart.
leadership games was ok? i dont know. i was kidnapped and the class looked for me.
from what i can deduce, i think the class got together to find me. shouting and calling my name. they expected me to laugh. yeah i did :D

drama performance was not bad (:
we could've won. but others were better. yeah.

sleeping and movies in the quad rocked (x

im gonna miss camp.
and the times we spent together (:

bianca said bye to me when she left.
i guess that means something, huh?

dont compare me to others.
just cos they can finish it.
doesnt mean i can.
people have their own paces.
their own styles.
i'm slower than others.
i'm not as smart as others.

to you, it may be simple to complete what we've been assigned.
yet it's been a weekend and i cant even finish one piece of work.
what's wrong with me?
it's not the mentality. it's not. it's our abilities.
my abilities arent as good
i'm useless.
i'm just garbage.
i'm not gonna be suicidal or anything.
i've gone past that stage.
no.
i have a day.
one short day
to finish everything.
every single thing.
can i?
as miss lim says,
if i think i can, i can.
i think i can. but now, i know i can't.
what's wrong with the world?
what's wrong with me?

before that happened
i never experienced this before.
is this a mental breakdown.
it's nearing a mental breakdown.

blast the music.
wipe out the noise.
kill the silence.
forget the sadness.
drown in the melody.
camouflage the true emotions.
hide behind a smile.
face the world.
bravely.

okeys i have a plan.
to stop myself from being so paranoid.
firstly,
i've totally got to STOP going to their blogs. but they're on the dropdown list. so its time to AD-AWARE it all away.
secondly,
ignore. IGNORE AND IGNORE. if possible, never NEVER do prjs with them. if their friends ask anything about them, i dont know.
thirdly,
eh actually thats all ._. oh one more. whatever i do, dont think about them for clearance. it's MY LIFE. i do WHAT I WANT, WHEN I WANT.
i'm not gonna let you all affect me anymore. its over. once and for all.

i hate homework.
seriously, this is RIDICULOUS.
you all give us 10 pieces of homework and expect us to finish them all during the WEEKEND?!
hello? some people are not so free okeys.
this is my schedule for you.

saturday
1.00-2.30pm; confirmation
[from church, reach home, 3.00pm]
4.00-5.30pm; chinese tuition
6.00-7.30pm; swim :P

there goes saturday.

sunday
8.00-11.00am; church
then go eat lunch.
(lunch and dinner eat out. cos no one to cook.)
and if i wanna slp in the afternoon?
-.-

ya so if you think i'm freaking free
YOU ARE SO WRONG.

btw.
2 people that totally got on my nerves today.
gorilla. and sunlao.
so i dont want to copy the answers.
SO WHAT?
just go away luh.
what the hell is wrong with you. what's with the form. i mean, NO BIG DEAL RIGHT?
whatever
and chinese test is JUST OVER.
and you give us another stupid ljwd? WTH?!

ok so they really got on my nerves.
and i have to see gorilla tomorrow.
kick her man. -.-

gtg do homework.
lsc on wednesday.
i do NOT look forward to working as a class with THEM.
btw, considering the number of people who like/dislike them, they are pretty much friendless apart from themselves.
chinny&co = 9-10
dwarves = 7
3 people = 3
and more. but atm, its 20 people. out of 36. but minus 7. so its 20/29.
hoorah.

okay wdv.
byebye.

haha i adopted yuann and charmaine =/

to HER. BIG DEAL LUH. -.- asshole.

right. so my mum will be back late.
thus i cant go for tuition
because there's no mrt. nor bus. that goes there. except taxi.
but remember in my previous previous post i said i have no money? ya
so im not going for tuition.
goujun and hilary arent going. goujun has squash hilary has dont know what. i wonder if ann's going. she'll kill me for not going ._. sorryyy annnnnn

hehe
huibin rocks
rachel rocks
yb rocks
meijiao rocks
evelyn rocks
sandy rocks
cheryl rocks
yenjin rocks
jean rocks
xinyi rocks (LOL)
zihui rocks
yiwei rocks
^{i rock (x}

haha all the rocks
but nvm they rock (x
yay guides.

haha what a random post.

eeee today is such a HOT DAY. and my mum couldnt fetch me home from church. so i walked back from the kembangan la. and it was so so so so hot. bleh.

where's my mum! i need to go for tuition and i have no more money for taxi! i spent all my money on the taxi to church. i was scared i'd be late.. the taxi driver was quite frustrated with the traffic cos it was jam-ey. ya so he kept tsk-ing. haha but he was nice. and that's one of the few times i'd take a taxi.
if i was running late late late. (:

oh im gonna change some settings. make it 4 days posts. instead of 2. it looks so few with only 2 days.
okay.
tons of hw.
plsplspls let me be able to do it.

and misslim says if i think i can do it, i can do it.
well, i MUST do it.
or i'll just die......
ohkays im gonna do math ): bye

haha i am gonna put a list of my undone/overdue homework/prjs here. =/ to remind myself. although it's already on my whiteboard. hahaha but just for fun (:

1. math ws 3.3 (wayyyy overdue)
2. math supplementary ws. (initially due today, but extended)
3. jap compo corrections (wayyyy overdue)
4. jap kanji chap 16 (due last wednesday)
5. jap matome quiz (due next monday)
6. lang arts presentation on jem (present on monday)
7. geography essay [700words] (due on tuesday)
8. math cd ws 4.1 (due ___?!)
9. math ws 4.1 (due on wednesday)
10. math cd ws 4.2 (due ___?!)
11. lang arts essay on a character [500words] (due on monday)
12. chinese zuowen (due on monday)
13. study for repro quiz x2 (quiz on monday)
14. math journal entry 9 (due on monday)
15. 4 designs for art (due first art lesson in term 2 LOL)
16. math revision (everyday ._.)
17. cme jianbao (due today)

18. OM T_T i so wanna go to acsi. but i think we killed om. too short ):
19. combined sia
20. math indep. learning
21. chinese sia

ya so you see? technically i have 17 homeworks. and 4 projects. maybe 5. dont know. its A LOT LA. =/


haha and im gonna list out the stuff i look forward to in guides.

1. soursops :D (sandy and yenjin)
2. sitting with evelyn (:
3. doing stuff with olivia (she's funny (x)
4. doing stuff with rachel (she's nice (x)
5. seeing :D and ^^^
6. rayna XD
7. nicenice seniors (:

ok thats about it la. :D
there may be more. depends on the schedule for that week. (:
yay guides (:
i never thought i'd ever be saying this: i love guides
but there! i said it
I LOVE GUIDES!
although one day i might go back on that phrase ): hopefully i wont (:
hehe i realised that a few wonderful people are not selected for first aid this year. like soursops, rayna, jean. ok i told you it was a FEW. thankfully next year i dont have to do with sgk. i'll just faint.
im doing healthrelated diseases with soursopyenjin (x
i wonder. arent all diseases related to health?
i mean, if you have a disease then you're not healthy anymore what. means its related to health! hahaha
unless its mental disease. but no, its not called mental disease. it's called mental PROBLEM. see? it's a problem.

and wahlao. today's lessons were irritating. i think the only good thing that happened was that misslim came in. seriously, i dont see what else is good.
pccg was garbage.
lang arts was boring.
chinese was stupid.
home econs was uh. okay, i guess. except for.. her.
math was definitely bad.
why? a few points.
-i was hyper (which is good ? i think)
-because i was hyper i didnt fall asleep though i was sleepy
-because i was hyper msteng pull my table in front
-because i am now in front and unable to be hyper, i fell asleep -.-
-and i couldnt really understand stuff. duh thats usual.

boring. okay gtg do math >|
blehs.
tmr have confirmation (:
ohkays bye

this is a list of the people who laughed/stared/made fun of/were amused by me and my costume. note that it's only me T_T

1. rachel O:
2. huibin T_T
3. regina ._.
4. charmaine x_x
5. yu ann =/
6. rayna ! (like her sister T_T)
7. hsin ying -.-
8. all the guides seniors who were making the rope thingy T_T T_T T_T
9. hilary >|
10. evelyn D:
11. lianghui [eep]
12. qitian (from afar I SAW OKAY!)
13. i cant rmb liao. but there are MORE!

yeah. so tragic. its just a costume! and i am aware of how weird i look in it. tragic tragic.

om was a tragedy.
our skit was way too short
and toh asked if we made the costumes ourselves. what did i say? "i dont know?"
ya so i got scolded ):
by the grp i mean. not her. ._.

after that louisa and i slept on the bus. went to her house. the spider web next to the library. after a while, qq came :D ya so we played and played. my hands are red from grabbing the rope. AH WELL IT WAS FUN :D ate icecream and drank bubbletea
then i went home.

there's guides tomorrow.
i predict funfunfun (:
station games. reminds me of the horrifying experience with the suicide window and the ladder. moreover, i've put on weight. crap.
sec1s are coming in tomorrow. our patrol has only 1 sec1. im not the only sec2 anymore. there's jiayu. i think she freaks me out T_T
half an hour of patrol corner. eeeps.
heh rachel :D

okays i owe a lot of hw.
sad.
you know what?
i think sunlao is c-r-a-p, CRAP.
okeys byebye~

hoho i think i should try and do what i did on the first day of school.
the moment the bell rang, pack bag, head for busstop, go straight home.
one day i shall do that
i wanna see what time i'll end up at home.
and how much i can accomplish
i'm gonna try it! see if i can actually finish up ALL my overdue work
like math 3.3, supple ws (tomorrow it WILL be overdue), etc.
XD
go iris! :D
im gonna turn myself into a nerd.
WHEEEEE :D

om is so stressful T_T
late nights, everyday.
good morning everyone.

and i changed my blogskin.
whoo.

misslim is so nice (:
she patted me hahaha
and yay she's so nice (:

today's om meeting was uh. hectic.
and full of weird dreams. like jiangyue's zombie dream. and my ._. dream. hahaha
went home quite late. reached home at 10. i think? not sure =/
but i know we were the last to leave school. apart from the guards la. duh.

gail just went offline.
left faith to talk to. haha
yay faith (:

and im sorry om grp. for being so useless and garbagey.

thank you miss lim for being so nice.
thank you so so so much soohan and chentian for comforting me.
thanks jean, xinyu, mabel, chinny for encouraging me.
thanks xinyi, louisa, zhenping, jiangyue, soohan, chentian for being such a nice om group even though i am not nice.
thanks louisa for fetching me home (hahaha) or rather, to your home.
thanks everyone who helped in some way or another to cheer me up, comfort me, etc.
thanks jiangyue for the hug after the om meeting cos of our unity.
thanks om group *lazy to list* for working to hard and getting nominated.
i know we can do it. we've sacrificed a lot for om. especially soohan. soohan, jiayou! we will do our best for your sake (:

and last thing.
louisa, i'm bringing your 8bucks tomorrow. if i forget to give you again. i'll faint. jk.

although that was 100% duoguanxianshi, i guess it helped me to see the light a bit. but sorry, i still hate you -.- and now although looking at you still makes me want to cry, and i am highly intimidated by you, i will do my utmost best to prove to you all that we can do it. you all can try and ruin our group's unity. but we can do it. i know we can. cos we're united. especially after today's om meeting.
the one and only om meeting with all 7 members present.
just 1 day before our presentation.
hoorah :D

i saw jiangchuan on the bus today! (she waved!) :D
and rachel smsed me. :D
ok the random things that just make me happy. cos well, a little bit of thingy will just make me happy at this moment. haha

i hope om is a success.
we've worked so hard, gotten this far.
let's not give up yet (:
and sorry once again.
for me, my actions, my words.

xinyi, i do not blame u :D dont be so scared la. i wont eat you. although i can suan you. but not always :D

im so useless. just a small (?) ok maybe not small. thing, and


i cry.
wow.


tmr recess going 4o2. then find sec1s. scary.

i fear that if i see them again tomorrow
i will cry.

today. i declare. im garbage. im sorry.